Today is bad

Oh son of a ***** this hurts. Hurts so badly that I'm nauseous and irritable. Can someone just find a cure for this before I rip out my own insides? All I have is aspirin, and it doesn't do anything for me. It would be like putting a bandaid over a gun shot wound, so what's the point? I really don't mean for these blogs to be just me complaining...who would want to read that all the time? But this is my life. My pain is constant and unrelenting. I appreciate your sympathies most sincerely, but believe me when I say it is not the reason I post these. Somehow, just getting these words out helps me mentally handle what I go through each day. And today is bad. I just need to get myself medical coverage so I can at least have some kind of pain management. Over the counter pills don't help; I tried Yoga and Pilates, but most of the positions make my left side (where my Endo is) feel like it's pulling and tearing; and natural remedies are costly and the ones I've tried so far have been ineffective. I just want a magic pill that would take all of this away. This pain gets so overwhelming and unbearable. I just so desperately need a break from it.